Something tells me that it isn't just a coincidence...the fact that every once in a while he looks like you...or sounds like you....I guess you two really are a lot alike. You both get mean when you drink. You both go on and on and on about stupid fucking shit that pisses you off. You both make me feel like a fucking crazy person. You both are wrapped up in self-pity so much that you make problems out of nothing. You both think I'm too good for you...and you are right.
He is the only person I've ever loved like this...other than you...this dysfunctional painful sort of love. Laying next to him right now, I can't decide wether to break free while I have the chance or just let myself get sucked deeper and deeper into it.
Sometimes I need to break my heart just to feel something...The pain is better than the alternative....it's the numbness that terrifies me.
